sports medicine doctor today to try and find out why my knees have been hurting so much going up and down stairs and going from a standing to sitting or sitting to standing position. It rarely hurts any other time and doesn't hurt all of the time but sometimes is so bad that I have crawled up the stairs. Those are the times the pain has been almost enough to make me cry. They did x rays of my knees. I had thought it was going to be cartilage wearing away because that is what my primary doctor thought but it turns out something is wrong with both of my kneecaps, they are going laterally inwards due to what I'm not exactly sure. Something to do with my quad muscles being stronger than my hamstrings and glutes. He said it will take months of physical therapy and that I will need to work really hard. He said he knows other people who have let it go and it gets debilitating if not worked on. I know it isn't the end of the world but I am feeling really down about this. I just don't know how I am going to make room for one more appointment each week and then the time to work at the out of therapy stuff they will give me to do. I guess once summer starts it won't be so bad but in the meantime I'm tired and worn out just thinking about it. Thanks for listening to my whine.