The last few months have been more difficult than normal for me. My company closed in December after 11 years of employment and it took me eight months to find a job in another field. I started looking in July. I just started my new job. difficult child was just diagnosed with type one diabetes two months ago which has added another layer of resposibiliy (and worry\stress) to my daily load. difficult child has severe learning disabilities so homework takes up my ENTIRE evening because he needs my assitance. That is after working with a tutor for an hour each day. I have lost my temper with difficult child more in the last six months than I ever have. I HONESTLY stay calm for HOURS yet he will push my buttons until I explode. Then after I explode I feel so much guilt I go into a depression. I warn difficult child, I tell difficult child to stop....95% of the time he does...but the other 5% just drains me. Anyway....what do you do that may help me deal with this in a more constructive way. The odd things is that every time I have exploded...difficult child stops behavior immediately and complies.......does this happen to you too? I was in the process of getting a Neuro Physc when difficult child was hospitalized for diabetes. I will try again in the summer when I have some bearing again.