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bran155
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I went to see my daughter in the hospital last night. She is completely out of control, as I knew she would be. The doctors said upon her admission, she will stay until they can stabilize her. (yeah, aint gonna happen) She has been in the hospital 9 times and on every drug imaginable, all to no avail. I explained this to them several times. She has been diagnosed with Borderline. The research I have done all says there just is no medication to help with that. Hence, that is why nothing has worked for her. So what now? How can they discharge her when she is not stable? Nothing about her has changed, she is hyper, very angry, cursing at everyone, has pressured speech, racing thoughts, her mood switches in seconds, she is the same kid I admitted 2 weeks ago. What exactly do they mean when they say "stable"?
For instance, last night our visit started out great. She was eating the chinese food I brought her and we were having a good conversation, that lasted about 10 minutes and then in a blink of an eye, she flipped!!! She saw my key chain with the picture of her little brother on it and got very, very angry. It was bizarre to see her switch her mood so drastically, so quickly. Pretty scary. She just went off, cursing me out, blaming me for her life, saying it was my fault that she couldn't see her brother and all that she is missing at home. I ruined her summer, yada, yada, yada...... I threatened to leave if she didn't calm down and stop cursing at me, she then told me to get the @#$% out and walked away. So I left in tears feeling so badly for her. I saw her mental illness so clearly and it was just so sad to watch. I of course have seen it plenty of times before, but I was hoping the hospital was helping and of course it's not. So now what? Does it ever get to a point where the docs just sort of give up and send her home anyway?
I am just at a loss and don't know how much longer of this life I can take. If she is this way in the hospital, it will only be 10 times worse when she comes home. HELP!
For instance, last night our visit started out great. She was eating the chinese food I brought her and we were having a good conversation, that lasted about 10 minutes and then in a blink of an eye, she flipped!!! She saw my key chain with the picture of her little brother on it and got very, very angry. It was bizarre to see her switch her mood so drastically, so quickly. Pretty scary. She just went off, cursing me out, blaming me for her life, saying it was my fault that she couldn't see her brother and all that she is missing at home. I ruined her summer, yada, yada, yada...... I threatened to leave if she didn't calm down and stop cursing at me, she then told me to get the @#$% out and walked away. So I left in tears feeling so badly for her. I saw her mental illness so clearly and it was just so sad to watch. I of course have seen it plenty of times before, but I was hoping the hospital was helping and of course it's not. So now what? Does it ever get to a point where the docs just sort of give up and send her home anyway?
I am just at a loss and don't know how much longer of this life I can take. If she is this way in the hospital, it will only be 10 times worse when she comes home. HELP!