AFter yesterdays episode with the boys shooting difficult child and destroying many things, difficult child was the saddest I ever saw. husband and I DID blow up at him. After a cooling down period I tried to talk to him, but he pushes me away. I tried to get him to go to the ice-rink/plex for teen night (middle school) He use to enjoy this. But said nobody wants him there. So, I left it alone. He has been just smart mouthed, yelling, hitting himself. Today he told me he was an airplane and started making airplane sounds. I don't know if he was just playing around or what's going on. He has been looking forward to doing this science experiment for weeks. Now we are ready to do it, (must be done at the park down the street). I told him I wanted to come (dad too). I told him I would take pictures. He SCREAMED at me that HE would be taking the pictures. I said OK. Then he informed me one of the buttons on his camera doesn't work. He showed it to me, and it has a one year warranty I said, "well, I'll see what I can do." I then told him if he uploads them to the computer you can delete them from the camera that way. Only he interrupted me 5 times and never let me finish, because he knows it all and it doesn't work that way. I DID this so I wanted him to know he CAN delete that way for now. But after him interupting me 5 times and not letting me get to the part about deleting. I was getting louder, he was getting louder. I just wated to be a part of his project. He said "GO AWAY, JUST GO AWAY" very loudly. So, I said I would. Wend and did some errons. Then husband enterd and the whole thing started again, only he changed his part and said I started screaming. He wouldn't even look at me without screaming so loudly. So, he said lets ask Ryan (brother who is down stairs) He want down and I heard difficult child SCREAM and yell. He told me to get out of here. So, at this point. I want to get out of here. I only wanted to be part of the science experiment...by the way , the homework that we have to MAKE him do. Could it me from dropping lexapro? Raising lamictal? adding remeron? Or is this what they do. Just want there mothers to disappear. And if I had any friends or family I would disappear. You guys are it. All I have to talk to. Don'e always expect a reply. Just good to get it out of me. Thank you.