newstart
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My 37 year old daughter is all about conspiracy stuff. Some of it makes sense, some of it does not. This goes on everytime I talk with her. I would like for her to tell me personal things like what she is doing but I get blasted with conspiracy stuff. OMG.
My daughter has gone to Church with me twice this month. This is a major big deal.
A couple of weeks ago my daughter and I went shopping at a health food store and she bought some specialized protein. It was expensive. She later calls to tell me how good it tastes and how she loves it. Everyday when she calls, she tells me what she mixed it with and how it is helping her body and mind. I went over to her house, saw the protein, I went to smell it, it had never been opened. She gets nervous and makes up some BS about how it just looks like it never was opened but she had been using it. I asked her to open it and I could tell it was the first time it was opened. WHY? all the lies...My guess is that she had been eating junk food and trying to make me think she had been making healthy food..I raised my kids organic, healthy foods, clean water, vitamins, exercise. I wonder if it is rebellion. I told her she is free to choose her lifestyle but not free from the result of her choices..IF she wants to continue to feel awful then keep doing what she is doing. She does have ODD and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD).
I noticed with my bipolar brother in law, if he knew I disliked something he would do it in front of me, it did not matter if it hurt him, as long as he was irritating me it gave him some sort of pleasure.
I would watch in amazement as he harmed himself thinking he was irritating me. Such a wonderful disorder to have. So glad he is out of my life. He keeps trying to get back into our lives but we will not take his abuse any longer.
The love for my daughter is so strong that I work at it and then work at it some more and when I think I cannot take her any longer I find a molecule of strength to keep plugging away. I wonder that when I get much older if I just will not be able to put so much effort into keeping things going. The truth is that it wears me out to the bone, just the nosense, the lies, the weirdness, it wears my soul out to the core of who I am.
My daughter has gone to Church with me twice this month. This is a major big deal.
A couple of weeks ago my daughter and I went shopping at a health food store and she bought some specialized protein. It was expensive. She later calls to tell me how good it tastes and how she loves it. Everyday when she calls, she tells me what she mixed it with and how it is helping her body and mind. I went over to her house, saw the protein, I went to smell it, it had never been opened. She gets nervous and makes up some BS about how it just looks like it never was opened but she had been using it. I asked her to open it and I could tell it was the first time it was opened. WHY? all the lies...My guess is that she had been eating junk food and trying to make me think she had been making healthy food..I raised my kids organic, healthy foods, clean water, vitamins, exercise. I wonder if it is rebellion. I told her she is free to choose her lifestyle but not free from the result of her choices..IF she wants to continue to feel awful then keep doing what she is doing. She does have ODD and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD).
I noticed with my bipolar brother in law, if he knew I disliked something he would do it in front of me, it did not matter if it hurt him, as long as he was irritating me it gave him some sort of pleasure.
I would watch in amazement as he harmed himself thinking he was irritating me. Such a wonderful disorder to have. So glad he is out of my life. He keeps trying to get back into our lives but we will not take his abuse any longer.
The love for my daughter is so strong that I work at it and then work at it some more and when I think I cannot take her any longer I find a molecule of strength to keep plugging away. I wonder that when I get much older if I just will not be able to put so much effort into keeping things going. The truth is that it wears me out to the bone, just the nosense, the lies, the weirdness, it wears my soul out to the core of who I am.