so yea its getting hairy here. i blew up so bad i scared myself.... seriously lol i slammed a door, i never do that. i broke glass in the process mirror was leaning against door glass all on my bedroom floor.
why? hmm so very many reasons.... difficult child came into my room again to "vent" this is an ongoing thing all day long about the lack of friends, not being able to go back to school yet etc.
when i told her difficult child listen you want to go back with the "tools" you need to handle it, i'm trying to keep you safe, healthy and make you capable of handling life's things. i think this new guy will help try to be patient, i'm trying too kiddo we're both in same boat different ages.
she says well you dont' get it, your zero support as usual on and on she went. it's the 3rd time today i heard it and well that was it. i'm tired and my anger got the best of me. i said how dare you i have no job, i am here for you and with you 24/7, i bring you to doctor's two hospitals and all you do is mimic me, give me a hard time, refuse to do anything i ask of you even therapy stuff. you sit here and tell me i'm nto supportive of you?
she mimicked me again and off i went jumped off bed and followed her to kitchen where she proceeded to mimick me once again and give me dirty looks and tell me off.
i simply walked away slammed my door hence glass everywhere that I gotta clean up now!
i'm like why am i doing this to myself. i told her keep pushing i'll pull up drop you off at school and say good luck if you keep pushing. she said "legally" you can't do that cps is invovled now! OMG! i needa desk and to be set up the right way you cant' just drop me. i said keep pushing kid and watch me. i've had about all i can take of you today, this week, this month.
sooo i'm beginning to think why am i doing this to myself? why not ease her back in and let her deal with-it on her own if that's what she wants. truly........
or am i just mad and venting and saying mean things? how can i survive the next 6 mos with a non compliant little brat who will bad mouth me and push me till i break and let her go back to that school she couldnt' handle even before her eating disorder??
i'm so tired and ******
why? hmm so very many reasons.... difficult child came into my room again to "vent" this is an ongoing thing all day long about the lack of friends, not being able to go back to school yet etc.
when i told her difficult child listen you want to go back with the "tools" you need to handle it, i'm trying to keep you safe, healthy and make you capable of handling life's things. i think this new guy will help try to be patient, i'm trying too kiddo we're both in same boat different ages.
she says well you dont' get it, your zero support as usual on and on she went. it's the 3rd time today i heard it and well that was it. i'm tired and my anger got the best of me. i said how dare you i have no job, i am here for you and with you 24/7, i bring you to doctor's two hospitals and all you do is mimic me, give me a hard time, refuse to do anything i ask of you even therapy stuff. you sit here and tell me i'm nto supportive of you?
she mimicked me again and off i went jumped off bed and followed her to kitchen where she proceeded to mimick me once again and give me dirty looks and tell me off.
i simply walked away slammed my door hence glass everywhere that I gotta clean up now!
i'm like why am i doing this to myself. i told her keep pushing i'll pull up drop you off at school and say good luck if you keep pushing. she said "legally" you can't do that cps is invovled now! OMG! i needa desk and to be set up the right way you cant' just drop me. i said keep pushing kid and watch me. i've had about all i can take of you today, this week, this month.
sooo i'm beginning to think why am i doing this to myself? why not ease her back in and let her deal with-it on her own if that's what she wants. truly........
or am i just mad and venting and saying mean things? how can i survive the next 6 mos with a non compliant little brat who will bad mouth me and push me till i break and let her go back to that school she couldnt' handle even before her eating disorder??
i'm so tired and ******