That's how long it's been since I sat in the ER with difficult child till this time. He showed up at the house today and was telling husband about his weird dreams, bad feelings, etc. and how he needs to be back in the hospital. You mean the hospital that got you feeling better because they MADE YOU TAKE YOUR medications????? THAT hospital? Huh. Imagine that. medications = feeling better. Oh wait, according to difficult child, no they don't. He still has the dreams and stuff when he's on his medications. Yeah, that really long time you took your medications after the hospital. What was it again? About 4 days? THAT does a lot of good. husband offered to take him to the ER on his (husband) way to class but difficult child said no. He "wanted someone there with him." Really? Because he told ME while we were waiting (after I got home from work and husband had gone on to class) that he just wanted me (or someone) there so he would have transport to the psychiatric hospital. I couldn't take sitting there a second longer and came home. I'm just so fed up and angry right now. No, it is most definately NOT difficult child's fault that he's mentally ill. BUT....after dealing with this for most of his 19 years, having it explained to him REPEATEDLY in an age appropriate manner and with more and more information as he got older, it IS his responsibility to deal with it, COOPERATE AND DISCUSS THINGS with his psychiatrist and do what HE needs to do to handle his OWN HEALTH. I really hope husband either gets out of class early or nothing is determined before he's out of class because I'm not sure, right at this moment, if I'm going back or not. Things haven't been going well for difficult child at his friend's house (where he's been living the past week) although I don't know what exactly that means. Could mean he and his friend had a falling out....could mean there are rules at that place too. Of course it could also mean that difficult child got a bug up his hiney about something and made another executive decision. ('Cause you know....we're his parents. We HAVE to take him back) I don't WANT him back here. He's completely non-compliant, behaves in a dismal manner and I don't trust him here by himself for many reasons. I know husband doesn't either but husband is also the one who says but...but...but.....he doesn't have any where to go...we need to get him through school (he's not going to class, he just wanders the halls and besides...he walked out AGAIN today) That man needs to wake up and realize that we've done all we can. difficult child has to do for himself somewhat AND he's a legal adult. We CAN'T do anything he doesn't want to do. Thanks for letting me vent.