husband last night convinced me to take today for me. it's amazing how i had a huge problem with-that. i always have a problem taking care of me, buying clothes for me, etc. he said it's way overdue, get in the truck and go ride a horse. it is something that i love in a way in which i cant' even verbalize. it just takes all my troubles away, i dunno how but it does. so he said here take extra money this week spend day for you, with yourself doing what you want literally all day long. good guy he is so, i did it took alot of work not to text my ex h to see how difficult child was doing, or text easy child to keep up on her. yet i let go for two hours. went to stable i used to go to all the time and when easy child was little she used to ride alot in competitions etc. saw few ppl hadnt' in a while. and i got to jump up on a very nasty horse by the way lol, and just take off. it was amazing, just what i needed that and the hour ride home with-the windows open and stereo blasting. than i came home to all the reality again lol. i have to do that more take care of me. i give everyone else great speeches yet dont' listen to my own words.