Ok...this one is for ME. As I've posted before, I am NOT normally an anxious person. I am seriously not. But, my goodness, there is WAY too much going on with M and he is WAY to unpredictable that I am totally worked up. Yesterday, I spent an HOUR and TWENTY MINUTES sitting by the window waiting for the van for Extended Day Program to come pick up M not knowing how he was going to react when it pulled up...was he going to get in the van, was he going to go into another 4 hr rage and destroy my house, was I going to have to call 911, was he just going to calmly refuse to get on the van and go to his room to "take space"???? So, I wait for the hour and twenty minutes with my heart pounding out of my chest, my stomach naseuous, a lump in my throat, my body shaking, choking back tears, and just feeling like a complete and utter mess. And the worst part? Due to a miscommunication between me and the Program Cooridantor, the van NEVER CAME! Anyway, today my anxiety is already through the roof because I have to try to get M to the Dr, which he has already let me know he is going to refuse to go to...and then today the Program van is definately coming and I have to again go through the waiting game and anticipate M's reaction when the van shows up. And then first thing tomorrow morning I have to figure out how to get M to our in-take PPT at the new school that he doesn't yet know about!!!! Seriously, I feel like I'm going to...I don't know what...vomit, cry, breakdown...something. And my psychologist appointment isn't for FOUR WEEKS!!!!! So...are there any natural techniques I can use to calm myself down or even some OTC medications I can take? I don't think I've ever felt like this in my entire life. It's overwhelming.