BusynMember
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I'm having one Monday, and not looking forward to it. This started about 3 years ago when I went to Job Development Services for our county, a placement place for people who have trouble with working. I've always had weird neuro symptoms (from childhood) and have had trouble multitasking and holding a job. Job Services made me go to a neuropsychologist and I did. In my follow up visit this year, I got a different neuropsychologist who was really nice. He said I should have an MRI so that maybe they can see why I have so much trouble in certain areas. Since I've had neuro symptoms since childhood (with just a few, such as sometimes stuttering, starting in my 20's (I'm 53) he'd like to see if anything shows up to give him a clue as to why I've always struggled so much with job. It is possible I'm on the Spectrum, but the Neuropsychs mostly feel it's a NonVerbal Learning Disorder (NVLD) because they say I'm way too friendly for the spectrum, yet, when I test, there are serious executive function problems, along with a high verbal IQ. My mom died of brain cancer at 75, so I'm scared witless, although the neurologist who ordered the test doesn't think I have any symptoms of that or a brain tumor. She doesn't even think anything will show up at all. In my 20's the questioned possible mild MS, and I still have very minor MS symptoms, but they never worsened. I'm being a baby about this. I'm afraid to go, ready to cancel. I'm not afraid of the test (although it doesn't sound like much fun). I'm afraid of the results, although my brain function has not diminished at all, according to all my testing. In fact, due to getting compensatory help, I actually scored better in a few categories this year. I'm not afraid of MS. I could deal with a mild case of MS. I'm afraid of the darn brain tumors that took my mother's life. Thanks for listening to the vent. (by the way, I'm on Disability for the slew of neuro problems that really make it hard for me to work. I had a two week "Work Evaluation" three years ago and thought I aced it, but I was told I have A LOT of trouble with transitioning and would need a job coach, which the county has none of, thus the Disability). I didn't go there even thinking "disability." I got it on the first try. In order to get services from Job Development Services you need to apply for SSI first. Confused yet?