Please send positive vibes my way! After staying home and homeschooling my son for 7 years ( ) I have decided to pick up where I left off and go back into a career of some sort. Prior to difficult child-dom I had spent 10 years working as a corporate manager. I am trying to go into a similar field although not identical. Having 7 years off dealing with a difficult child has left me with a somewhat, (ok, very) deflated self esteem. I am pretty wary of venturing back into Corporate America, to say the least. But it has to be done! I am officially broke, and pretty soon will have no health insurance. None the less, when I look at my resume, and see the big gaping hole of the last 7 years, I feel ill. I am worried that they will just automatically dismiss my resume because I have not been in the workforce since 2000 - and - truth be told - I am worried that I do not have the same gutzpa that got me so far in the first place. Some (no, a lot) of my spunk and energy died these last 7 years, and I am not sure if it will come back on demand. I have to believe in it though - my future depends on it. So - I guess I am just asking for prayers and positive thoughts. It is a BIG change. It means my soon-to-be 17 year old will get to his GED classes, on his own. BIG step. And once there on his own, will behave - because Mom will no longer be available to bail him out. He is too old anyway. And it is a BIG step because my dad has stage 4 brain cancer. He does not have long to live, and plans on dying in Oregon. I will be at "a new career" most probably, in the final stages of his death, far, far away from him. This grieves me immensely. But I know that this is something he wants for me before he passes. He has expressed that repeatedly. He wants me to have my life back. Aiiyyaaaa.......I am overwhelmed! But I just need to believe in myself, and use the same tenacity that has gotten me this far. Thanks for your prayers, thoughts, or whatever else you want to send my way.