Hello all my new friends.. been a crazy week, this new job has got me going and going not had a day off since Christmas day and not sure when I will be off for a day in the near future!! uggg But better than sitting at home doing nothing.... Have not seen Justin Since Christmas day, finally got a call from the Residential Treatment Center (RTC) he is doing very well, he went up for the next mini-level with in his new level, was turned down for it becuase of the issues of his recent conversations with me. Here is the first letter (I am reading between the lines.. I think I see a bit of very respectful manipulation.. but just not sure.. this is my hard part ... it is so hard to tell) Dear Daddy How is everythign going at home? So nothing much has changed here just the same old stuff everyday as it was exactly seven days ago for everyday if that makes any sense (no clue what he is talking about!! haha) Well today I almost refused taking my medications. because the past couple of days I have not been expressing about the anxiety I have been having for my family session and just how I have been thinking about how I am going to live my life when I get out of here. I made a mistake and I hope you will forgive me for the little bit of disrespect I have threw off at staff by not answering them. It was because of build up stress and not expressing it. (personal stuff...) Then the next letter.... Dear Daddy, I have accepted what has happened (me staying here) and I am doing very well. (Lots of personal stuff.... ) Well I am going to stay consistant and not give up. I love you.... So... shoot I do not know... what a great kid... I am praying each night this stuff is real... I have family session on the 9th and I know it is not going to be an easy one, I think I am going to have to be firm on his stay and maybe even make him mad that he is not coming home as soon as he thinks he is just becuase he is doing good now.. So it will be a good test on how he handles the disapointment... Anyway.. I WENT TO THE DR. (wow how humiliating that was!) But he said he is VERY Glad I came in and said I should have long ago.. Anyway.. I am not sure as I have not had time to look up these medications.. or if they are normal doeses or light ones.. but he put me on... Busprione 15MG Tabs 1 tab two times a day Zoloft 50MG Tab 1/2tab for 7 days then 1 tab a day after first 7 days Ambien 10MG Tab - Told me to use that for sleep Well day three I am going to do what he says.. I got to this time!!