So for 4 days my AS seemed to be doing better. Seemed like the depression was getting better. Not sure if it was due to his birthday last week or what but the depression got worse again. Missed an IOP at the end of week and can't miss anymore or will get removed from the program. Self harming (cutting) is back. I want to tell the IOP about the cutting but fear they will tell him I told and try to commit him. He is not doing it to take his life just to release the emotional pain. I know if i suggest sober living he will fight it. I have to let him come to that decision on his own but just not sure when that light bulb will go on. If he gets removed from IOP for missing too many meetings, then he has nothing. He is still sober and got his token today at AA for 60 days. He is just so down on himself and feels he will never get passed his guilt and shame. I know I am to just ask "what do you think you could do to help with the depression? Be among others going through this just like you when you come home from work and on weekends?" But I guess I know the answer. AS always gets angry when we bring it up. I just don't know why AS won't give it a chance. He has to take control of this. He is on anti depressants but I just don't know.