Breathing deeply now... I got 11 yo difficult child with bipolar calm. She is taking a bath now (her safe place). I made the mistake of taking the girls to Target as a special treat to pick up some doll clothing. difficult child tried to escalate purchase to something much bigger, and I refused. Began the episode in the store. Became very angry in car, threw box at me (dang, it hurt!). Hit 9 year old sister. Got home, and she began throwing furniture, shoes, etc... Then she hit little sister, so I sent sister to friend/neighbor's home. I am just SO so tired. Second manic swing in a week. She misses her dad (who is away on a six month trip for work), and I am having health problems myself (high blood pressure, a-fib, chronic migraine, and benign adenoma on pituitary). Everyone tells me, "take care of yourself so you can take care of your kids," but how in the heck can I do that when every single day is not just a challenge, but a full-on battle??? Little sister has told me she is so so sad about all of this. difficult child is BEASTLY to her. Help. Maybe I just needed to vent a bit. It has been a long time since I've posted. Wow, this is an incoherent, rambling message.