No way! I expect most of you to shout. So, we are having a week in New York next week. I've been looking forward to getting away with H and youngest daughter for ages. Son seemed better when he visited recently and I haven't been worrying about him lately. Then texted me this morning to say he was in massive pain again (he was taken to hospital a while ago with same pains in his joints and they couldn't find anything wrong). He says he's in agony and wants to chop his arm off. He says he doesn't mind if he dies in the squat. He knows I'm flying over the pond soon and won't be contactable for 8 days. He knows the house will be empty. Part of me thinks he's putting it on, wanting me to worry about him, wanting to spoil my holiday maybe. Part of me thinks he's really ill and I should suggest he comes and stays in a comfy bed with a full fridge while we're away. He could look after the cats and house-sit. I know there are HUGE reasons why I should never mention this idea to him or H. I just feel like 'for goodness sake, I knew something would crop up, I knew there would be some last-minute hitch'. The biggest part of me just wants to run away from it all. Am I cross or frustrated or worried or just cheesed-off? Who knows. Don't feel obliged to answer this post, I know what the answers will be, just feeling worn out with it all again and it helps to post.