I want to know if I am crazy. I had a new psychiatric assessment today which may or may not have been a waste of time. I am trying to get a new therapist but that is like finding hens teeth down here. Maybe I will strike gold again. Who knows. This lady I went to see today was supposed to be the one I was going to be seeing and then halfway through the interview she tells me she isnt going to be doing therapy anymore as of Monday but they "think" they have a new girl hired to be working in the Lumberton office starting next month. Oh goody. Lets hope I like her. Blech. But she asked me if I have intrusive thoughts. I am not entirely sure what intrusive thoughts are. I talk to myself in my head constantly. I carry on whole, complete conversations with myself constantly. I mean back and forth conversations. As if there were two or more people talking up there. Maybe its a coping mechanism because I am an only child and I really have been alone so much of my life with so few people to talk to for extended periods of time? Then there are always those lovely questions about what I do for fun. Oh I sit home and play on the computer and watch tv. Do you go to movies or groups or church or have friends? Nope. Well I have a large group of online friends. I talk to them. Oh. I like to go to concerts if there is one around that I can afford to go to and I go to Darlington every year. But what do you do to leave the house every week. Well I normally go to the grocery store and if I have a doctor's appointment, I go there. Nothing else? Nope. What do you want to get out of therapy? Huh? how about a gold star and a lollypop. I dont know.