He's not coming home from college this year. And I've been missing him. So when he pocket dialed my phone and left a voice mail, I thought I'd listen to his voice for a few minutes. The thought that it wasn't ethically right did flash through my mind. That should of been a warning. Seems easy child and his friends are pothead! And to think I had the delusion that ONE of my kids was smarter than that!! Was I blind! Didn't his siblings rehab stays mean anything to him? As a good friend said "Superman Syndrome". Oh, and the other shoe??? Well, Washington has legalized medical pot. And ANT, my just out of rehab son, has a prescription for it and a LICENSE to distribute! easy child was telling his buddies all about it. It's the only thing he misses about not coming home this summer. Of course this explains some of Ant's behaviors lately. I think it's time to turn in my Mom resignation. I'm so done with all of it. It's time they go live their lives and I'll live mine! They'll still be my kids and we will talk and visit over holidays, I'll enjoy my grandkids if they have any. But I think I'm done being so emotionally invested in them. easy child is still getting a 3.something in college so he's not close to dropping out or anything. And he's turning 21. At that age, I was on my own. I did my own thing and paid the consequences good or bad all on my own. easy child can do the same. And Ant has always been one to cross every line in the sand and challenge EVERYTHING! He too, can live with the consequences good or bad. And Steph has nothing to do with us, it's like I have 2 (dumb) sons and no daughter at all. As time goes by, it's been getting easier. I'll still be there for them when/if they need me, but I need to work on letting go. It's time to adjust to being the parent of Adult children. Even if they don't act like adults! I knew this day was coming. From the moment you give birth to your child they are on a path to move away from you. To be independent. I'm ever so grateful for this wonderful place right here and all my wonderful friends here that help keep me grounded! This would be so much harder without you guys! thanks for listening.