I have to tell you, I'm not looking forward to my easy child daughters 18th birthday party this Sunday, so I need help gearing up for it. I'm excited for her, but it will be the first time I have spent any amount of time with s2bx and I'm not looking forward to it. I have had a few conversations with him over the past week in regards to who is bringing what. He is doing all the food as he always loved to cook and he will make his famous ribs that everybody loves, and I'm doing the cake, cupcakes, drinks, paper goods etc. Speaking to him on the phone about all of this has been awkward enough and I'm dreading spending the time around him on Sunday. My sister in-law was gracious enough to let us have the party at her house, as I refused to have it at his house (my old house) and my apartment is to small. The only savior for me will be that I have spent all my time with his family since our seperation and he hasn't spent any, so he will probably feel more uncomfortable then I will, but that is his problem. I know I have to get used to this as we have kids and there will always be times that we will have to be in the same place at the same time, but I think because this is the first it's making me very anxious. Hopefully once I get through this one, the rest will be much easier. I hope it's not too uncomfortable for everyone else, because this will be the first time anyone has been around the two of us together in months.