So fortunate I saw this site. Honestly, it's the best I've seen so far. I came looking because my life is out of control and I can't get a grip anymore. My son has ADHD, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), and I think NonVerbal Learning Disorder (NVLD). He's 10 years old, and can be a really loving kid at times. But only to me. He has put a strain on this entire family, and even on my extended family at times. Mornings are hell. Can't tell you how many times I've woken up someone else in the family because of the yelling match he and I go through sometimes. I never ever used to raise my voice at anyone. But the last few years have been really tough, and I don't know where to go from here. My husband took a job as a truck driver long haul 1 1/2 years ago, and things got so much more stressful for me. Now my husband and teenager are worred about me, they know that something's changed, and I am no longer the "normal" person I was. I'm always stressed, and I know that we need to parent differently, but it's very difficult to do when your child is yelling at you (now my other children have never done that, let alone gotten away with it). I dont' spank my child, I itry to reason with him. But, it's hard to do when someone is being very hateful to you just because you're trying to wake him up to go to school. The truth is, I'm scared because there are days when I don't know how I restrain myself from hitting him. I know how bad this sounds, but it's the honest truth. I know if I hit him once, I won't be able to stop until he shuts up, which by the way is something he just never does. I've made an appointment with a psychologist. I really need help, tons of help. I want to be the mom that I used to be.