The interview went well. They are sending him an application and will add it to the 15 mth wait list.
He said he would write them twice a week so they will see how serious he is and maybe move him further up the wait list.
He said he needed a long program, that 2 -3 mths wasn't long enough ( yes, I almost dropped the phone! )
and he felt like Canaan Land was the place for him.
I said to maybe find a plan B, in case he was released sooner so that he would have somewhere set up to go.
He remains content.
He said that life just hit him in the face and he has to do something positive.
I continue to feel blessed each time we talk. I don't know what God has planned for us but, he is surely being good to me right now allowing me to share in this transformation of my son.
This is hearthope. I am the one that chased my son all over the state. The 'queen' of this is the last time, again.
I feel so sorry for all the other moms going thru what I went thru for so long.
There really is healing in detaching. I had not had peace for nearly five years, when I finally let go and let God I found peace.
My son is in jail, by his own choices. I am finally making him suffer the FULL consequences of his actions.
My easy child is happy. My marriage is intact. My family is becoming whole.
My son has written me the most beautiful poem, he thanks me for the struggles I made raising him and his sister on my own away from the drugs of bio-dad. He thanks me for always providing him with a loving home, etc.
If he was not in jail, away from the drugs and drinking, I would have never gotten that letter. He is healing now, just like the rest of us are. He is sober and able to think clearly.
Thank you all for your prayers! We have all come a long way!!!!
Traci - Your post reminds me of me! It is easy to detach and pat yourself on the back when they are in jail. I hate to say it but some of my most peaceful times was when my son was in jail. However, the last stint in jail for him we told him from the get go that he could not come back home. Find a place to go to recovery - somewhere that could help him. I sent him a lot of literature, called places, told him to write to them, etc. He promised me a lot but did not carry through when he got out. I didnt bail him out. He wanted me to. I saw him today. He came over about 9 this morning. He starts in on his probation is worrying him, the doctor needs to give him his Xanax prescription, etc., etc., by the time I took him to work I was exhausted from his anxiousness. I know that if he is back under my roof it would go back to the same thing. It always has and I dont have anything to go on that would make me think otherwise but if he had gone to a recovery house where they could take him to everything he needed to go to and also find him a job. He has to be willing to not get drunk and high and he is not willing to do that. It is so frustrating. :smile: