After listening to mum on the phone last night hacking and wheezing with her Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease (COPD) (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease), I hung up and destroyed my cigarettes, threw away my lighter and ashtray. I'm using Nicorette Lozenges as a quitting aid. Can't use the gum because it sticks to my upper plate. Can't use the patch because I'm allergic to the adhesive. Mum was the same age I am now when she quit, and like me, was a 2 pack a day smoker. I can't hack it anymore. My sinuses already feel better for a day with-o cigarettes, so do my lungs. Maybe all in my head, but I'll take it. My blood pressure was creeping up so I cut out excess salt a few months ago. It came down some, but not enough. I was hacking up a lung in the AM. So far the worst times have been with my AM tea, after meals, and when sitting on the computer. That's when I hit the lozenges. They taste vile, but they do help. I can't use them every hour as recommended as I get nauseous and the hiccups, which are signs of nicotine toxicity. So...I am using them when the cravings hit. I tried Welbutrin years ago and it turned me into someone I didn't want to be around, let alone anyone else. My psychiatrist put the kibosh on Chantix, so I have what I have, and I'm going with it. Hopefully my sense of smell will come back. (and I'll probably go nuts with the house smelling of smoke.) Meanwhile, I am eating sunflower seeds and dropping shells all over my desk. Tomorrow I get to clean the cigarette ashes off my desk. I threw out the ashtray so I am using an old bowl for shells. I feel very spacey and slightly manic. Went out to Walgreen's earlier and stocked up on hard candy and nuts to munch on. It's hard. Everywhere I go for errands sells smokes. I have to go through an internal fight every darned time I go into one of these places. It hoovers majorly. I'd love to have a cold beer or cider, but can't because THAT is my worst smoking trigger of all. Oh well, if knocking off alcohol entirely is what it takes to quit, I'll figure it to be another benefit. I drink maybe 2-3 times a month, and I figure I'll keep the booze for when I go through a week without outright cravings. They'll keep that long and if they don't, well, they'll go down the drain. Wish me luck. I'm going from 2 packs a day to no cigs at all. I have an e-cigarette but oddly, that makes me cough. Not sure what's in it, but that's the way it is. Pity, as it gives me something to do with my hands that isn't fattening.