I know I have upset some of you and I great and honestly apologize. I have been in such a hard place for a long time, its taken me a while to snap out of it and quit being everyone's puppet. I finally have gotten "off my booty" and quit crying..ok, still complaining though" and have succeeded in some things. My son will be further tested, daughter will be if grades slip or any other signs I will take her, and flat out told her! But new medications again for son, need to be adjusted higher. Im looking for a job again, got denied a couple( not Spanish speaking and other was no experience) But its ok, Ill find something or I will start my own little cleaning business of sorts? Just until I find a job. Oh, school starts for me In Dec( or June, depends on when I have the job)!!! Things were smooth for a bit, but got rough once he was off his pills, but one day at a time, but at full speed now. Its what I say or want to be tested, ( which is everything to make sure what is or isnt) and yes, different doctors, Pysch Dr etc are coming into the picture now. I still am taking every last word you all have said and advice, and yes, using them. Anyways, I just wanted to let all of you know that you got through to a very cement block headed chic, and wanted to officially thank all of you. I have many, ( most posts I regret writing on here) and wish they can all be gone with. I know my family and I have a long ways to go, but, Im trying. So, I wanted to add, Im sorry for all the losses and health and family issues you all have had,and wishing you all brighter and happier days ahead. I have been reading some threads and signed in a few times.. but never had the guts to write this until now. I really really want know you all to know you all saved us. You stood by us when doctors and even some family wouldn't, words can never thank you for helping us, as well as putting up with me. Hugs all, you will always be in my thoughts.