Hello, This Jan 1 will be 13 years since my son was killed. He was 19. My surviving son Ray is now 33 and an active addict an is homeless. He has 2 beautiful children that I had to help his mom gain full custody of. We have not spoken in almost 3 years other than horrible text messages he sends me, I have now blocked him. He's very abusive, has charges against him from girls that he has assaulted. He drinks 24/7 and will do any drug you place in front of him. I know loosing my son MIck really hit him hard, they were best friends but its not an excuse to say FTW and especially your kids and wife. He put them thru so much and I had to protect them. My final straw was he drove drunk with my grandbabies and I mean drunk, he could barely walk he was so intoxicated. That day i had to make him leave. He told me to mourn him like I do his brother and that is exactly what I do, that and wait for a call telling me he's dead. I just dont know how I got here. My sons are my life and I always pictured us together and doing fun things with their kids. But my youngest will never be a father and my oldest just threw it all away.