with difficult child last night. Totally lost it. I had to leave for a few hours, AFTER I realized I almost hit him. My throat was sore from yelling, I just was out of control. Like last year. Which caused husband and I to fight, and I blamed it on difficult child. Day 5 of school: He had a lot of homework. I noticed it was "warm-ups"-math. He didn't do it last week. His friend in English was moved away from him because difficult child was talking..he got mad and ended up in the hallway for the class period. When I asked what he did when he got mad, he said he forgot. yeah..right. He asked to be moved to the Special Education. class. This is exactly what he didn't want. He wanted to have no contact with them. He wanted a friend in his class. The program director believed him and so did I. So, that is what he got. I was so angry even the dogs ran under the bed. What is so hard about following the rules? I told him he is staying where he is, and he better not put a foot out of line. I told him there will be no baseball, no computer, nothing. I told husband to call his coach. The double header yesterday was rescheduled to today due to rain. Ofcourse, husband says nothing during all this. Walks away and doesn't come back until I leave. Same as always. I have a meeting with teachers today..husband won't come. When I returned home last night I asked if he called the coach. Nope. I asked why he doesn't say anything to difficult child. Don't know. I totally was out of control. I believe difficult child was afraid of me. Especially when I raised my hand. That is when I knew I had to leave. difficult child said his friend is getting transfered out of honors. I believe that is why difficult child wants to. But I told him no, this is what he wanted and this is where he is staying. He can do the work, he just wants someone to do it for him and give him the answers. I am still upset. Avoided all contact with him last night. He refused breakfast, but then looked at me(angry) and decided he better eat. Eating is another issue I have with him so he knew better than to mess with me again. He kept asking what time my meeting was at. I didn't tell him. Why??? so he could refuse work AFTER I was there? on the other hand...he wrote that wonderful poem, and it meant so much to me because I could relate to what he was talking about. I wasn't sure how the teacher would like it. But he put a lot of thought into it and chose such wonderful words for a poem. He told me the teacher said it was great. Asked him if she could read it to the class. He said he didn't really want her to but told her it was ok, so she read it to the class. He said he wants to join this book club, because after 6 books and telling about it he would go on a trip to a local college and meet some author. He says he wants it but I know better. He doesn't read. Has refused silent reading for years. Not because he can't read..because it was something he could refuse. How, why does he think the rules aren't for him? I just absolutely have nothing to say to the teachers. He lied to me, he lied to them. I feel totally defeated. I fought so hard for him and he refuses everthing I have in place for him. Well, he refuses everything. I know I said things I shouldn't of. I even threatened to leave again. I just cannot handle his behavior. After all these years you would think I would have a better grip on it. Well, we'll see how the meeting goes.