Well -
First of all let me start by saying - my son is 20 - and not arguably has one of the worst recorded behavior records anywhere. We had him in therapy for 15 years. FIFTEEN. Once a week - EVERY week - whether he WANTED to go, whether he PARTICIPATED or not, WHETHER he thought he was getting something out of it or whether the shrink MAYBE was just a little bit smarter than my 8,9,10,11,12 year old child.
See for us? What a LOT of people fail to realize is - your child is diagnosed with what? Oppositional Defiance Disorder. Conduct Disorder? Yeah - so WHAT is/are a few of those symptoms? (laughing a bit here) ABILITY TO SIT IN THERAPY AND PARTICIPATE? WILLINGNESS TO GET ALONG WITH A PERSON OF AUTHORITY (psychiatrist) WHO IS TELLING HIM WHAT? HOW TO BEHAVE? OMG - you may as well sit in him a jail cell once a week for 10 years @45 minutes and let a cop tell him how to behave or maybe a teacher/principal or some other AUTHORATIVE figure - that they DEFY?! So once you realize that therapy even for NORMAL behaved children isn't always 100% seemingly practical - it makes a little bit better sense to YOU when you realize that what you are doing now is basically downloading the Ipod - and waiting for your kid to go "Ohhhhh I think that's stored in my data bank, I shall use this information for good, not evil....." and eventually? You see them starting to use some of the skills they learned - but (AND THIS WAS MY OMG MOMENT) -it has to be THEIR idea. (how ridiculous and self-centered is THAT?) -sounds just like a difficult child isn't it - damned near self-diagnoses. (slaps head over and over because my 20 year old is JUST now putting things into motion that he learned all those years ago in STUPID STUPID, waste of my time, I WILL NOT LISTEN TO YOU DR. H..EVER." therapy.
(Yeah gotta let Dr. H know about "Muhamad Ali" walking away from a confrontation the other night because he remembered something about wasn't it better that HE was free and that idiot walked around angry? (therapy technique but still - nearly a boomerang effect)
So somedays our therapist played checkers with him - somedays he just talked and Dude pretended to sleep. At some point we hit a wall and if your therapist is worth a salt? He'll KNOW if he's helping your son or not - NOT just "Well I can't do anything with this kid. I'm clueless." Ours suggested several alternatives - one being this VERY old, VERY (OMG I wouldn't have even been comfy talking to this dinosaur) man and we went to see him as the NEW therapist - and well whattya know - bingo bango - there was a little chatter next week. lol (wink nod) I'm not too sure it wasn't a set up with both PhD's. (for both of us) lol
If it's absolutely not working? FIND SOMEONE ELSE - but keep going. Get him in the habit of knowing he needs something - to talk to someone - that this is NORMAL to be okay to get out some emotions...and that you don't mind going too. I loved it.
As far as the reading and communicating? Talk to a therapist about courses in effective communication, do a google search - there's a good book out called How to talk to your teen so he will listen and how to listen so your teen will talk. DO NOT let the kid know you are reading this. Just get it - do the workbook pages inthe book and do a chapter a week.
Find ANY parenting classes you can - find a local chapter of NAMI - and GO....they have resources.
Don't assume that it's just the kid...don't think you are broken either. It's just new mechanics - and you have to catch up. It's like I tell my Mom - Well - If YOU gave birth to a Bengal Tiger would you know how to raise it? Noooooooo So you'd have to go to classes and read and talk to others that raised one? See what they like, need etc? Right - Not much different. You can't raise a difficult child like every other kid. You can't raise every other kid like every other kid - but you know that - they're all different. difficult child's are unique and quirky - and you are lucky enough and tough enough to do this. You just have to find out how to parent him in a unique way - and stop thinking that the way YOU were raised is going to transcend to this kid. If you don't? You are both going to continue to be miserable and you WILL continue to not like each other at all. Not like will grow to hate and that will grow to be something worse. No one really wants that. If you did? You wouldn't be seeking answers here.
They may not be the answers you hoped to find. God knows I figured I'd come here 10 years ago and for all the medications we tried I was SURE our docs just hadn't heard of the RIGHT one - the people here would just laugh and say OH star ------you should be trying VITAMETAVEGAMIN - and *POOF* I'd go back to my doctor ask for that, get a prescription, give it to my son, he'd take it? He'd turn back into a normal child, I'd parent him just like I was parented by my mom and dad - and life would be heaven.
And then ------life happened - and it wasn't anything like that a'tall. And I stay here - trying to help and offer a bit of advice for those that will take it - and hope. Because we're no where near done with our story. Our amusement park just keeps buying property......wheeeee.
Hugs!
Star
Oh and as far as him saying "I'm not going?" You get a therapist too - One for you, one for the family and one for him - and ask YOUR therapist how he thinks is best. We picked our kid up and put him in the car until he was too big, and then we just started stripping his room and privledges and when I say strip? I mean - ZIP.
And .....our "secret" reward was just us - me, him and DF and he got to pick the restaurant we went to before we hit the shrink - every week. His choice if he had participated and got in the car - didn't have to talk - just had to go.