Hi everyone, I come read these forums now and again when I just can't take being a parent of a difficult child anymore, but have never posted before. It is so nice to know I'm not alone. My daughter is diagnosed ADHD (by neurologist) and ODD/Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) (by psychologist), and I'm beginning to suspect she's bipolar. She has incredible insomnia yet is never tired, her moods fluctuate between extremely giddy/hyper and crying/screaming (within a single hour), she's way too focused on sexuality for her age, and she fluctuates between a super high ego and super low self esteem. Add all that to her ADHD, oppositional behaviors, and life-disrupting irrational fears, and I am spent. I don't know if I can make it through several more years of this. I love her so much and it hurts so badly to see her suffering. It's heartbreaking. I want to help her so badly, but all I can do is keep taking her to doctors and psychologists who don't seem to understand the severity of it. I started videotaping her tonight so that maybe they'll finally see how bad it is. But ultimately it seems that I'm just going to have to live this way....helpless and tormented by love for a being that is supposed to be a child, but doesn't even resemble one sometimes because she's so sick. Thanks for reading, just had to get this off my chest.