I stumbled across this site two days ago and feel like I have found a place where I am NOT alone, for the first time. Please forgive me as I ramble on for a minute about my family. I am a stay at home mom to 5 incredible children and the wife to an amazing husband. Each of our children was adopted. The three older children were each adopted as infants. In July, we adopted half-brothers who are ages 2 & 1. Our oldest daughter is 11. She was diagnosed a year ago with bipolar disorder and takes Lamotrigine. Our 6 year old daughter is my comic relief and keeps me sane on most days. Our 5 year old son was born with a congenital heart defect with will require continuing surgeries throughout his life. At the age of 2, he was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome and I am now concerned that he may be showing early signs of schizophrenia. His birth father also has schizophrenia. Our two new little boys were both born addicted to meth and are quite developmentally delayed. On a daily basis, I am the person that you always see smiling and rarely complaining about anything. I am amazed and continually grateful to be a mom to these precious children. In the quiet of my own home, I battle depression and constant worry over the safety and health of my children. I hope to find a place where I can share my thoughts without feeling judged and find support from others who understand.