hi! So, i hope everyone's well. I haven't been in much this week, i've been trying to get everyone here on the "I work now" thing again. It hasn't been easy, difficult child's holding her own. boyfriend needed about five million talks. Our dynamic has changed greatly, so we shall see what Monday brings. easy child has even told me she misses me. They all grew so accustomed to having me around all the time. See, so I did do alot while I was here at home and now their feeling it. Tmrw i meet the new sitter, i think she will be. At least for now till i get my schedule under control. Right now i'm just trying to schedule appointments to "shadow" other family support workers, and also schedule appts. with the team leaders to meet my families that i'll be working with. I'm realizing how hard it is to make a schedule. I'm going out in the field alone this coming thursday or friday, i'm already catching the interoffice carp from other family support who are saying i'm going out too early, why are they letting me, blah blah. I just smile and keep on walking. So, I had my first at home visit with the team leader to introduce me to the parents of my first family. It hit me that night after the appointment, that I'm finally doing the right thing. I've worked as a rest. manager, a paralegal, bartended to make extra money during my divorce. Yet when I saw the look on this mother's face at the sight of help, i knew right than and there this was where i belonged. It was a strong sense I haven't ever felt before at a job. This job makes me want to learn all I can to help these parents, foster parents, grandparents in anyway I possibly can. It's not going to be easy, my hearts on my sleeve it's who I am so i have cried a bit over what I"m seeing. Yet tha'Tourette's Syndrome how I know I'll be the best to these ppl I possibly can, because their touching me. Anyway I just wanted to share with-all of you. You guys have been with me since the beginning of the difficult child travels and upsets, doctors, medications, my own upsets, etc. I"m sure there will be a whole lot more. Yet this had to be shared.