For all of you who have heard this before please raise your hands! We say it here all the time to other warrior parents who are under a great deal of stress. I may have to rethink this before I "open" my mouth. Big question: where do I start? What do I ignore. Let's see ~ bills must be paid. Medications must be filled & taken (kt & myself). Running my household daily. Hmmmmm, dog must be cared for ~ come to think of it I have a cat as well. kt is in crisis mode & I have 1 sometimes 2, heck there are days when 3 therapeutic staff show up here; kt has staff here 7 days a week ~ do I ignore their queries; skip "family therapy"? I will soon have workmen in here to remodel my bathroom so I don't fall on my head getting out of that darned clawfoot bathtub I so loved when husband & I bought this house; after that's done I'm moving the laundry to the first floor for the same reason except going up & done basement stairs. I was informed this is a huge priority; safety issues. I need a new roof on my house. Probably shouldn't ignore those things as it makes my home functional & dry. There are 7 voicemails waiting to be heard.....I plan on doing that today. wm needs to see me more often - he feels abandoned. His staff is willing to transport him here....wait a minute, kt is here. Can I get kt out of the house? My question....who's going to get wm out of here once he gets here. He's too emotionally volatile. Foster mum & I both know that wm will refuse to leave. Hmmmmmm I have in home nursing (2x a week) & PT (3x a week). That's becoming intrusive as well. Then I have counseling once a week plus all these doctors who ordered the in home but must see me one to two times a month. (Okay this is taking care of me but it's becoming to much & I cannot keep up.) Oh, husband died & I'm supposed to grieve. Wait...I'm not to upset the tweedles. I can cry but I cannot be human; I must remain a "therapeutic" mom. I was told by my neuro doctor this past Friday that something has to give or I'm going to end up in the stress/depression unit at the hospital. He's recommending a 30 day stay. I'll try to fit that in...sometime next May.