hi to everyone i've kinda been gone for a while. i hope everyone's ok and difficult child's are ok and calm this weekend. so my little person 9 now with no medications and we ran out of chlonidine bad mom that i am so she's been up last night till who knwos with tv on same thing tonight so here's what i see she's hyper talks fast all the time is animated again is and seems happy but when gets mad at me gets so mad almost hit me the other night oh wait she did hit me....... anyway she can't focus on homework. she hastn' done alot of work in school shes falling behind terribly was at a 4 at beginning of year thats' the best now shs'es at 2 and heading down to 1. completely unfocused and teacher said seems oppositional yet sitter adn i both see severe focusing problems especially at hw time. wasnt' like this when she was medicated. sleep obvoiusly doesn't happen without the nighttime medication for sleep. tried melatonin it's like candy to her totaly joke does nothing. it's like a wild horse. so i just don't know if bi polar is it anymore watching her these past several weeks unmedicated. i dotn' see swings of moodiness as far as depression is concerned seems to be up most times or really ****** off at someone to be quite honest. when she;s mad watch out. so my guts saying wait a second maybe adhd she's not a jumper out of seat kid in class.....so thursday evaluation. results are coming in should be interesting let's see if it's worth teh almost 5k i have to pay off. it had better be. can i do this wtihout medications i'm not sure i think i can i need to learn tools to assist her focusing and she needs medications for sleep. she's flourishing socially by the way which is so weird now the anxiety's dropped considerably no more worries before bed pretty much. is anxious dont' get me wrong about just anything else. but related to school absolute minimal as of late. weird, huh..??