I am new here, yet haven't had the courage to post but have been reading many of your stories for the last year. This will be a long post, so please bear with me. I have 7 beautiful children, 4 by birth and 3 by adoption. My 17 year old son has always been different than the others. He has never in his life had a single friend, we've tried enrolling him in every sport and youth group known to man, yet he just never responds well. He has a Mensa level IQ and graduated high school at 16. I always just chalked the behavior up to Einstein syndrome, as we called it. So smart that he's socially awkward. His bio mom was a habitual drug and alcohol user and he suffered sexual abuse and horrible conditions during his first 8 years of life. He also was in kidney failure and a year ago, I donated mine, so he could live a normal life. He has a lengthy history of unusual behavior. Pathological lying, cheating, stealing, masterbating on peoples beds, urinating on siblings things, obsession with beheading videos, covering himself and walls with feces, exposing himself, sneaking in our room and watching us while we sleep .. the list goes on. He has been hospitalized for failure to take antirejection medications, catheter and behavior issues 6 times in the last 9 months. The last hospitalization prior to the current one, he unlocked the door to the pool and put his toddler brother and his toys outside and locked the door behind him. We told psychiatric doctors this and begged for inpatient help. Due to medical conditions, they couldn't find a residential facility to take him that insurance would cover. The doctors have called this a conduct disorder. The final straw was him telling us that he has urges to poison us and has made a concoction of antifreeze,food dye and other chemicals from his biochemistry lab that he conconctes so that he can "watch our eyes while we slowly die". He also has put bleach in the NyQuil, formaldehyde in the hot sauce. The only reason the antifreeze plot didn't work was because the fumes made him vomit. He has told the hospital psychiatrist this and is currently hospitalized for kidney issues for non compliance. The hospital can't find a facility to take him and chose to send him home knowing all this , with "intensive outpatient therapy". My husband made the decision to tell the hospital that he would not pick him up, as his is a danger to all the other children in the household. The hospital then called CPS who has filed suit against us for abandonment. They have assumed physical custody of him but can't find any placement for him. He is currently still at the hospital since they can't find a place to put him. We have court next week for the charges and have an attorney. The worst part is that if we allowed him to come home, knowing what we do, cps has every right to take our other minor children away for putting them in harms way. But if we don't bring him home, they charge us with abandonment. The entire system has failed us and we have a huge fight on our hands. We love all of our children and are trying everything we can to do what is right for everyone. Any advice you can give would be a huge help!