difficult child 1 is depressed right now. I am not sure what to do. He says that he has different things going through his head all the time. He says he wished he was dead. He is crying and sad and says he doesnt know why. He even said that he wanted to go to a hospital. I am scared and do not know what to do. I am so mad that I have him this disorder. God what do I do. I know he will not hurt himself but I am still worried. He told husband that he used a pillow to sufficate himself but it did not work. We are talking about a 9 yr old. Please help.