I just need to throw myself a little pity party. I just hate the way my life is going right now. I hate the struggle I am having with difficult child. I am tired. I threw my back out this morning and it hurts like crazy. And, I am sad. I am feeling petty and jealous of the families that do not have to deal with this. Friends that have 2 kids that are fine and happy, and they do and do things, and do not have to plan days ahead of time so that difficult child knows what is coming. Being able to get their children up to do things. Sorry. Just needed to feel bad for myself. I keep trying to act like everything is better, because my family is expecting that everything should be back to normal. But, they are far from it. My husband just separated himself from all of it, so I am left to handle all of it. And, sometimes, like now, it is just too much. Those of you that are single moms, I bow down to you. You are my heroes. Ok, tome to move on and get back to my life.