It is out of my hands. They were going to discharge him to home today, even though he told me that if he went home he was going to kill himself. I told them that as much as I wanted him to come home that I was not feeling comfortable about what he was saying and how he was acting. He was refusing to work with me on the home contract of rules that the hospital required. Today they were going to discharge him to home anyway, but he was heard threatening to kill himself several times this morning. They began to feel uncomfortable about the home idea, and made the decision that they were going to transfer him to the local state hospital/Residential Treatment Center (RTC). In between all of these calls, difficult child called me and pleaded to come home and that he would work on doing all the rules we needed to agree to. He was so upset. The decision was out of my hands. I am shook up because I already had planned his school bus starting up again and made some therapist and psychiatrist appointments. I was in the "he is coming home"mindframe already. But- I realize that he is not ready yet. I know he needs more therapy, and more time to work on the medications. This is an emotional roller coaster!