Ok, psychiatric Dr is next month as the insc issues and referral pushed it back So son started 4ml of quillivant on Sat most of it last three days he spit out or "accidentally" squeezed out.. uh huh. pediatrician prescribed him this although, they couldn't diagnose him at their office. Huh? Whatever! So I dont think he has had much to make him tantrum worse but of course we had to tell him no twice this weekend and that set him off. So before you all said because of his anger that he needs non stimulant, will be talking to his dr( again) soon ( other dr and new dr, omg we have a lot of doctors!!!) So I have some calls again to make today to see if this one in home therapy place takes the insc, if so, Im so excited!!! If not, Ill find one! ( last one didn't) So again how perfect he is with everyone but me and my dad which is not true as hes blown up in front of gpa, at stores with others, and gpa is in denial, and if he lived with the neighbors or friend for a while he would get comfy or just used to it and he will blow, he cant handle the word "no" or anything that doesnt go his way. Again he can be the sweetest, smartest helpful little guy and then a light switch and its demon time. Sometimes he is just so irritable he starts over nothing. Well hopefully the dr will have some good tips when we go, the office claims he will !!! So looking forward to seeing what he diagnoses him with and what pills and therapy!! I decided to get confidence type therapy too, I think that will be good for all of us to get!!!!!! Its hard to have confidence when exs and family and neighbors put you down so much. Then when something goes wrong with our kids, even if no one says its our fault, as parents, at least for me, I take the blame. Of course Im not perfect, but, Im not that bad either! I do agree with others that some ( not all) of this is testing me because I have gaven in, but Im learning more know and to stick with things, trying to figure out punishments. See, punishments. I asked a long time ago about outside time and I agree son should not go out if he was violent, but, yikes this is his only relief as is favorite thing to do.. so its a tough call! Plus we are punished when hes in and cant go out! He gets mad over no electronics or not going to friends houses or the park, but if I take those away and still let him play in our front/back yard, its easier on all of us!! Lots of trial and errors I guess? What do you think? Gee I wish those of you whose kids act up mainly with you could come tell my gpa and neighbors a thing or two!!!!!! So, Im still going, pushing forward and making my plans still on heading for the hills! Ok, not the hills, wouldnt want to drive that in bad weather haha, maybe an acre of land, that would be wonderful!!!! One day!!!! Omg I could just see what my kids would do with the land!!!!! hmmm?