I want to thank those of you who have responded to my TWO posts. I can't thank you enough. I hope to find time SOON, where I can reply. It is mostly only me and the boys and I often fall off to sleep exhausted with my 7 year old. Days are long and exhausting, nights seem short. I am sure many of us feel this way. I only have a minute as I must tend to the laundry, preparing sauce, returning calls and playing with my 4 year old who doesn't ever seem to want to occupy himself (even for 5 minutes). THERE NEVER SEEMS ANY "ME" TIME. What I didn't mention in my prior postings is in addition to my 7 year old son having Multiple diagnosis, I have a husband who has damaaged my heart completly. It has been (almost) 3 years since I found out about him falling for another woman. He is still living with us (aparently she ended it with him cause she claims to be a good person). The last three years have been a painful, worriesome, stressful time. IMAGINE, dealing with all this maritial stuff in addition to the difficulties of a son with his troubles. I loved this man and he ruined me! He made the discovery after his involment with this other woman, "that parenting is not for him.". I wonder each day if he will leave us and file for divorce, leaving me to care for the kids and worry about bills, fighting schools,,,. He has stated he wants me to return to work so I can help support my kids. I haven't much education. Workign would be insane at their young ages (my boys are 7 and 4). As I said, I am dealing with sooooo many issues. My pain, loss of self esteem, worry, stress, stress, and more stress. I have no support from family friends. They don't live close by. AND my neighbours don't get my situtation (they haven't had a cheating husband ruin them, nor do they have children with the difficulties my 7 year old has). I am so tired. So scared. So sad. So worried. Anyone out there in my shoes? Cheating spouse who now hates/loves their spouse and yet spouse doesn't want to be with them? I know he would be gone if only money weren't the issue for him. My son has ADHD, ODD (oppositional defiant disorder), Anxiety, MID (mild intellectual disability), fine/gross motor skills difficulties, social skills difficulites AND I THINK I AM DEALING WITH THE VERY WORST CASE OF SIBLING RIVALRY. I am hating my life! HELP!