Hey guys
I am hanging in there. I am leaving to go back to dallas today.
The memorial was beautiful, and the scattering of her ashes was also just how she wanted it - but I do not think the reality of it all has set in yet.
I am still somewhat obsessed with the case, and the details, as no official cause of death has been found yet. Still too many unsolved, missing pieces for me to feel settled. Although yesterday I spent a couple of hours at the pond where they found her, and I felt a small nugget of closure, I still am so confused about really what happened, as are the police.
The police interviewed me again, and I feel better that they are taking more of an interest. They have added 3 more detectives to the case, which made me feel as if they were as concerned as I am about finding out exactly what happened.
My parents and I made ammends, and let bygones be bygones, or at least I did - I don't think they were as mad at me, as I was with them. Time on this earth is evidently quite short - and I do not have the time to be mad at what family I have left. My dad's health is precarious at best - and this will not help.
Thanks again for your prayers I need them - and so much more. Life was already not at all how I wanted it - not it feels even more unbearable.