Hi all, Well I've not been here for a while, I have been trying to rebuild my life this year in what was the worst and most traumatic year of my life!! I pray that no one I care for ever has to endure the same. A quick recap ... difficult child was arrested for assaulting SO in feb this year and threatening him with a knife and a piece of 4x4... the long and the short of it was that I refused to have him home as i felt unsafe and Both me and my family need to feel protected and secure in our own home. difficult child was placed in foster care and then in supported lodgings with support from various networks. THE PRESENT .. difficult child was asked to leave supported lodgings as they felt they couldnt help him, SW asked me to have him home 'for a few days' while they sorted somewhere else out, i refused... once he was here he would never leave. SW found him a hostel that same day strange huh? We have been working with an agency to try and rebuild the relationship, but he still refuses to see me!! Last week was his birthday and he phoned me asking me to go see him (he wanted money) when i said i couldnt get there difficult child called me names and hung up and i havent heard from him since. So.. really we are no further along than we were that day in february! I feel that i did the wrong thing by not going to see him but my theory is if he doesnt want me the rest of the year he doesnt want me on his birthday? Plus he knows that we are to have supervised visits only (for my safety) and yet he wanted me to go alone to visit him. The last time i saw him was in the summer holidays as he wanted to see his sisters, and that was supervised. He has been asked every week if he will see me but refuses, his reason? he's not in the mood!!! I love him dearly and it still tears me apart every time he refuses to see me but what can i do?