I've been struggling more and more. I cannot think or relax. I cry all the time. I went to therapy and to al-anon today plus went to a phone al-anon meeting and had several outreach calls. difficult child's trying to get an old using pal to rent an apartment near here. The kid is living with his parents now and has no car but has some cash from an inheritance. Of course he doesn't know I know this - or that he is telling people he is moving back here Friday. difficult child told me he looked for a job for several hours today and has an interview on Thursday. He also told me that 4 people relapsed yesterday which the sober house manager says is a lie. Manager has talked to difficult child several times in the last few days. difficult child is fighting with his roommate because difficult child won't clean up. Manager tells difficult child that it can't be everyone else wrong all the time - the common denominator is difficult child. Cell phone records show difficult child hasn't talked to sponsor in 3 days. Talked to my therapist today. She knows difficult child as she treated him several years. She said that after so many deceptions for so many years, that these behaviors are ingrained into his personality. I know I am waiting for the shoe to drop - to refuse to pay his rent, get the car back and tell difficult child to call me when he is serious. He told me yesterday he was "NOT going to live in a homeless shelter"...then again he told me he wasn't going to rehab or to a sober house. It's just hard - to be a single parent - with little family - and deal with this. I really need advice. If you have any suggestions - anything - I'm open. Thank you!