I cannot get out of this funk. I am so tired, and frustrated! This chaos never ends and it is just too much. Starting next week, Sammy will be going downtown, which is 30 minutes without traffic but at least 45 minutes with traffic, every monday wednesday and friday. They have at least 15 weaknesses (I cant spell the other word) that they will be working on. They are working on language, self help skills, physical skills, cognitive skills...just to name a few. I pick Sammy up from school and ask him "Did you eat your sandwhich today?" and his answer "Toby" He doesnt even give an appropriate answer. Did he understand the question or does he not feel like answering? Last week his therapist, husband, and I were panicked because he wouldnt aknowledge anyone else other than Toby in his class if you asked him about it. He has been in the same class with all of these children for a year and a half. I got the class picture and said who is this and he wouldnt answer so his therapist asked and he answered and we all gave a huge sigh of relief there! We took him to a classmates birthday party on sunday and we actually made it the whole time! It was depressing though to see how different he is and how behind he is when he is around other children. I also hate taking him out of his school 3 days a week because he loves it! Yesterday morning he said "ready for school! go to car!" I know he needs this. I also feel that this is our last resort. We have no more options after this. We have tried so many other places but they are too arrogant and refuse to listen to us when we explain how Sammy operates. They think that they will be the ones to change him completely. Sammys current therapy office knows his quirks and knows how he operates and they are very realistic about what will and will not happen. Sammy is so stubborn. He always has been. You can say the sky is blue and just to annoy you he will say no its yellow. He knows its blue, he has spoken about it before, he just wants to fight you. He is like that about everything. It doesnt matter what it is. It is especially bad with me and him. I dont engage in battle with him. He will battle with himself. I dont know. i am especially tired this week. I am tired of all the battles and the crazy schedules. I just want the life to slow down and that is out of my control.