I'm not knocking LPNs by a long shot. That is the very program I walked out of 3 weeks before graduation 26 years ago. Maybe this is "Someone upstairs" way of telling me I need to finish that before moving on. At this point I don't know.
I know I was as prepared as I could be for this one. And the math portion started and it was gone. I even gave myself several long moments to breathe and refocus. That did help, but not much. I was messing up horribly on easy problems and I knew it. I just couldn't seem to get my brain to kick into gear. Sad to say that by the time I got to the math section my case of nerves was gone. So nerves wasn't the problem. It was like it was a whole new set of problems and my brain decided to shut off instead of work. argh!
I feel like I've been hit by that truck all over again. It really hoovers. I don't think it was anxiety or a bad case of nerves. This happened too often in Algebra class. I'm thinking it is the Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) and there isn't going to be a whole lot I can do about it. I can do much of this stuff on a calculator, but can't do long drawn out math problems because I get lost half way thru and forget what I'm doing or start getting the numbers mixed up. And if I feel rushed.......my brain seems to go on overload and shuts down.
I can "step up" after doing the LPN into the RN program, after working the required 1000 hours as an LPN. BUT I still have to take an entrance exam. Although easy child swears it's not the same exam.......I know we had 2 others in testing today who were LPNs and were having to take the same test. And I've already asked the lady I spoke to and she said yes, it would be the same one. I guess I could ask again during the interview to be certain.
Also the woman I spoke to said I could go ahead and sign up for the LPN and still retake the test......and if I pass it, I can switch back over into the RN. That lets me retake the test and saves my spot in the LPN if I fail again.
Paramedic is also an option.
But I have to say failing this test has shaken my self confidence more than just a bit.
For years I've told Travis and Nichole they aren't stupid because of their disabilities and they should feel they are. And yet, I know how they feel. Even knowing the Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) is most likely the cause (this never was an issue before the accident) I'm finding it hard not to feel stupid because I can't pass a math test. *sniff*
Maybe it's a good thing I decided to take another math class next quarter.
Heather, tell Janet I dunno. I'd have to ask someone in the disabilities office if it could be done and how to do it. I never even thought of it.
I'm going to start talking to people and hash things over with easy child before deciding my next move.
And although I am sorely tempted........ I am not quitting.
You guys are the bestest ever.
(((hugs)))