I am in a funk and I'm having a bit of trouble shaking it. My home is empty and H and I have slipped into a sort of boring little groove. easy child is coming home the end of the month and likely so will difficult child. It's nice and strange having an empty house. The quiet is nice, but a little unnerving at times. I cleaned my house and did all the laundry and various other tasks over the weekend and was done in just a few short hours. I read two large hardcover books in just 4 days! I pulled H away from the renovation on our house to take a hike with me. I bathed the pups & did mini projects out of sheer boredom. I drafted up a contract for when difficult child returns home. I mean, I haven't been sitting on the couch watching tv. I've been busy, but it feels like 'busy work', Know what I mean?? I feel like a shlump; I gained back some weight and I have no desire to do anything about it. I'm having trouble sleeping too. I can sleep, but in some way I'm resisting it and then I'm tired. I feel tired all the time. I have no one to take care of for the immediate, yet I feel stretched thin. I had a cold sore break out on my nose - I usually only get those when I'm upset or stressing about stuff. Is it that the weather is changing and we're going through seasonal change? Is it that the compilation of 'issues' around me are getting to me? My mom called me last night crying and I was able to calm her. It's so hard because she's so far away. difficult child called me and sounded glum. I think exh told her she wasn't coming home this weekend (her 18th birthday) afterall and she's probably feeling down about that. I'm not ready for her to come home and I told exh she needed to stay a bit longer. H and I went out for soup at Panera's (our favorite place) but my heart just isn't into anything at all. I got my period the other day and I wish that pita would just stop already. It's so debilitating now and it exhausts me. I am overdue for my review at work since April!! My boss keeps putting me off. I recently had to give my assistant her review and put through a raise for her. Her review was a week late and her raise went through as retroactive. When I finally get my raise, will it be ballsy for me to ask that it be retroactive? I guess this is mostly a vent. Seems everyone I know is totally tapped emotionally and I don't want to unload on them, and the ones who aren't are probably just sick of hearing me whine at this point. Haha. Oh well, thanks if you've read this far.