First, I'm sorry I haven't been responding much to others' posts. I'm in such a funk. I know easy child is being a PITA, but I don't know why this time it's different. He's been a PITA before. He does have way more attitude, but he's had attitude before. I just feel like when I talk to him anymore, that I'm talking to a different person. Is it because I know he's growing up and moving on and I'm dealing by becoming angry? I do tend to get angry rather than hurt - my coping mechanism. I'm still sleeping a horrendous amount, although better than last week - or the week before, can't remember. And I've actually had a bit of energy for the first time in...I don't know how long. But, all I want to do is cry. When I'm not crying - which is most of the time because I don't like to cry - I feel sick. I have no appetite. I don't want to do anything, but I have been making myself get out of the house a little bit. And I've started a period. I don't have periods. I take medication so I don't have periods (because of endometriosis). I've been on this medication for over 4 years. WTH is up with that? I've been clenching my teeth so much the last few months that all of my teeth are cold sensitive, I get shooting pains in my jaw and into my ear, and the muscles along my jaw quiver and twitch. I can't afford a bite plane. And all of my old tricks to stop from clenching aren't working. I'm rambling. I just feel lost. So, like any other woman who needs a change, I'm thinking about getting my hair cut. It's long enough that I could donate it. And, yes I know, as difficult child would say...that was random. I'm just so scattered.