Hello All- I was going to check in tonight anyway because I had one of those days that was at least 3 steps back when the week in general was pretty good-- does the back and forth ever end/ or at least become less frequent?...had a dream about difficult child last night and it was awful so woke up missing him even more than usual...I had texted him on Tuesday just to check in with him and got no reply..this was after seeing him a little over a week ok for a short, nice visit with girlfriend-- he came home to pick up some things and I reiterated him that he was welcome to come visit us...(my story is we had to kick him out because he physically attacked me right before Christmas- he went to live with my parents who have since disinherited me and putting all blame on me for many many years of obvious mental illness with difficult child 19 yo son)...so in my moment (hours?) of weakness this morning, I sent him an email to ask him if he'd still like to try and get together, that I miss him and hope he's doing well but since he's not responding to me, does he want me to leave him alone? I have sent nothing but nice, loving messages, to explain the conflict with his grandparents (which he's been the victim of in the past when they first disinherited me when he was in 6th grade)...anyhow, I didn't get a reply all day and figured that must be my answer but then got this awhile ago...how do you interpret what he's saying? I don't even know what I've done to apologize for that is so wrong-- other than I'm not paying his bills anymore nor having him live her and treat us disrespectfully...I'm having such a hard time accepting that I probably just need to let him go, not contact him again and wait to hear from him?...what would you do? EMAIL FROM HIM-- To me. You practically did disown me when you said I am no longer welcome at home anymore and cut off all support. Then when I apologized a million and a half times and asked you that the next step in order for everybody to even begin to move forward was for you to say sorry. And I got an email back saying you'd just rather talk about this in therapy. I'm working A LOT and trying my best to keep up with school but still have time for me. I have become very busy and very stressed since December. And meeting with someone that can't take responsibility for what has happened just brings that stress up. I will try to work things out so I can meet with you. It's just not one of my top priorities because of what was previously stated. If you want to apologize and/or help out some it would definitely move up on my priority scale. I love you very much and I'm trying to say all of this as nice as possible. But it is IMpossible to move forward with ANYBODY you're in a relationship with if you just think things are their fault and their problem and that's the end of it. And please, if you're reply is not some form of an apology or something nice. Don't bother replying. I have long days ahead of me and don't have the patience to deal with crap on the side.