Good evening.....been doing really well, going through the motions of life- trying to not dwell on difficult child. Decided at one point that it is what it is. I guess that's my emotions deciding that not dwelling (and appearing "hard" about it all) is best. Yesterday, got a series of texts from difficult child (who I've not seen since August 14th, and not talked to since our last go around- he doesn't text me, I don't text him)......he's been living with some girl since he has nowhere else to go. Him: ok so I'm homeless again really need help...ive been working but now im trying to leave where I live this ain't gonna work plz I just need help trying to stay on a good note Him: ? im begging u plz help me Him: trying to keep doing good but need a place to lay my head plzzzzzz Me: what do you think I can do? Him: can you talk to <his sister>? I will pay whatever and I promise there will be no more problems just need help mom Me: I don't think that's a good idea to stay with her Him: why not? Me: because there was drama, you stole from her, and it was too stressful overall Him: ok but things have changed mom I have a little more sense like I would appreciate some help even if I have to take **** talking or whatever I will work nites, so it's just a place to sleep and shower and eat nothing else Him: nobody is trying or willing to help me and I'm trying to do better for myself realizing some things and changing ways Me: what happened to where you were living? Him: don't want to be here, it's too stressful Me: so you stay and you deal until you have a plan. don't leave, then get mad that you don't have a plan, you know? Him: but being here will land me in jail if they want me gone Me: if you are working nights then you would want to be at <sisters> during the day while she's at work, and you aren't trustworthy. That won't work. Him: so is there no way to get any help? like I'm just being left to fail? Him: just to sleep? Him: like I'm really trying to do better. nobody gives chances anymore. Him: just give me a chance to prove everybody wrong? Me: son, you burnt bridges. you have to understand that trust be earned back. Words won't do that. Him: can't earn trust if I'm not around though? and my reason for leaving <sisters> wasn't because I stole something Him: that was your reason for leaving Him: we just argued and fought about dumb stuff Me: theft was discovered after you left. had it been before you left, that would have been the reason you would have left. Him: look, i've changed my ways and have done away with all of that its not worth it but I'm begging for a chance to prove it Him: I just need help even if it's a little apartment. I just need help. Him: how much are hill***** plaza apartments? Me: I know you don't think I can pay for an apartment for you? because I cannot. Him: I can pay for apartment, I just need help. It ended with me telling him that when he got off this morning to call those apartments and find out how much it would cost to move in. They are little apartments, all bills paid, and come furnished. And to let me know. I was contemplating maybe even helping with a small deposit and prorated rent for November, and he could take it from there. My name wouldn't be on anything. Never heard from him all day today- but then had a missed call from him this evening. No voicemail, no text. So, I have to assume that whatever help he needed wasn't too dire? He had also sent one text to his sister but she never responded. He absolutely canNOT go back to her apartment. Not at ALL. Part of me feels for him. Growing up is hard to do, you know? Another part of me instinctively feels like he's lying. Seems like if this were truth, he'd have been at those apartments FIRST THING this morning. /sigh. Thoughts? Help?