Ok, this is the third time I've tried to write this, so I don't think it will be as long and drawn out, but maybe it will, I am pretty frustrated lol. My first ? is what are all the acronyms? The difficult children and such. Ok, so I already pretty much knew for the last 8-12 months that my son was ADHD. It's not hard to tell, even the psychologist says "he's pretty intense" And lately it's getting so much worse. He's 5 years old and his attention span is getting shorter as he gets older. He doesn't pay attention to anything, and is so easily distracted that his shoes can be right there in front of him and you still have to ask him 4 or 5 times to put them on before he focuses enough to do it. He is impulsive, OMG is he impulsive, I don't think that he thinks about anything he says or does, his mind thinks it and he immediately does it. About a week and a half ago he broke a $50 vase. I felt so bad I paid for it, the store wasn't technically open yet. A couple days before that he was following me in the store, and all the sudden he saw the movie section and was gone, I didn't notice till a few minutes later, and it then took me 20 min. to find him because he wouldn't respond to my calls, and this is not a big store either. He has come so close to being hit by cars, it terrifies me. I'm at the point where I don't even want to take him out in public because it sends me into instant panic mode. I'm so scared of what he might do that I don't even want to try. Oddly enough though I have adhd in my family, my sister was diagnosed adhd. I don't want to medicate him, and since I will not do riddelin, I'm not sure what his options are otherwise. We've been told he's too young for straterra. So we are working on behavior therapy. Doing 1-2-3 magic AGAIN, this time I'm resolved to stick it out. I tend to get frustrated when things don't work right away and give up, but this time I won't. I feel so so guilty, thinking maybe I've exasperated the problem with my explosive temper. I do not spank, but man I can yell....I feel like it's all I do anymore. My son is a funny, smart, loving little boy when his impulses and inattentiveness are not in the way, which is rarely lately. All I want anymore is to just get away from him, and the other kids. I feel tired and like **** all the time, I'm just sick of ALWAYS fighting him for EVERYTHING it seems. I'm not sure how to handle the pressure any more. Now that we have a diagnosis I am a bit more relieved, and understanding I hope. Thank you allf or letting me vent, this is the only support group online that I've found.