healinginside
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Here I am again with that lovely feeling in my stomach - the gut punch of motherhood....
My son is in jail (is this really my life) and did not receive bond. His hearing is April 18 but may be delayed.
On this episode of my son's life: He is getting beat up in jail....mainly because he can't keep to himself, Two nights ago, he was jumped by someone who used soap as a weapon. We can't talk about the reasons He was beaten up pretty badly....He was moved to the maximum security section where everything is taped. He sounded like he got a good cellmate. The new cellmate who sounds a little older but knows his way around the jail - he set my son up on these tablets where they can watch movies, send texts through the approved app to registered persons (like myself), and make video calls to registered users. We were planning Occupational Therapist (OT) do a video call this morning, but he didn't show up. I knew something was wrong when he didn't show up.
He called me three hours later and told me he is now in the psychiatric ward for an evaluation. Last night at 4 am, he decided he wanted some oatmeal and said someone had given him permission to get it (this I doubt - I think he could have imagined it)....he got into an argument with another prisoner and the deputy said he was talking to himself (he DOES that)....he said the deputy mentioned schizophrenia, Borderline (BPD) and something else, He was evaluated twice for schizophrenia and both times they did not think he had it. He was diagnosed before with PTSD and ADHD and delusions....he doesn't really fit with Borderline (BPD) because he was missing a huge part of that, which is suicide risk. He was never one to be suicidal. I participated in a 6-week course on Borderline (BPD) and did not feel he had the symptoms. I think he had delusions, but not Borderline (BPD). He said that he might get medication.
I am grieving a bit. I am grieving who my son could have been. How this feels like a lifetime weight that I have to carry on my back. I don't know where he will go when he is released as he is mentally ill and I cannot have him here. it is too dangerous for us.
He reached out to me again a few minutes ago and I could tell he sounded better. but i think he is just masking the fear that they are going to find out about his mental illness.
Anyone with adult children in jail - did they go on medications in jail?
I did talk with my doctor, who gave me a prescription for acute anxiety. It is delayed though and I could have really used it today.
I am lucky to have such a good support system with this board, my daughter, and my husband. For this, I thank you with all of my heart. I don't know what I would do without this board....
My son is in jail (is this really my life) and did not receive bond. His hearing is April 18 but may be delayed.
On this episode of my son's life: He is getting beat up in jail....mainly because he can't keep to himself, Two nights ago, he was jumped by someone who used soap as a weapon. We can't talk about the reasons He was beaten up pretty badly....He was moved to the maximum security section where everything is taped. He sounded like he got a good cellmate. The new cellmate who sounds a little older but knows his way around the jail - he set my son up on these tablets where they can watch movies, send texts through the approved app to registered persons (like myself), and make video calls to registered users. We were planning Occupational Therapist (OT) do a video call this morning, but he didn't show up. I knew something was wrong when he didn't show up.
He called me three hours later and told me he is now in the psychiatric ward for an evaluation. Last night at 4 am, he decided he wanted some oatmeal and said someone had given him permission to get it (this I doubt - I think he could have imagined it)....he got into an argument with another prisoner and the deputy said he was talking to himself (he DOES that)....he said the deputy mentioned schizophrenia, Borderline (BPD) and something else, He was evaluated twice for schizophrenia and both times they did not think he had it. He was diagnosed before with PTSD and ADHD and delusions....he doesn't really fit with Borderline (BPD) because he was missing a huge part of that, which is suicide risk. He was never one to be suicidal. I participated in a 6-week course on Borderline (BPD) and did not feel he had the symptoms. I think he had delusions, but not Borderline (BPD). He said that he might get medication.
I am grieving a bit. I am grieving who my son could have been. How this feels like a lifetime weight that I have to carry on my back. I don't know where he will go when he is released as he is mentally ill and I cannot have him here. it is too dangerous for us.
He reached out to me again a few minutes ago and I could tell he sounded better. but i think he is just masking the fear that they are going to find out about his mental illness.
Anyone with adult children in jail - did they go on medications in jail?
I did talk with my doctor, who gave me a prescription for acute anxiety. It is delayed though and I could have really used it today.
I am lucky to have such a good support system with this board, my daughter, and my husband. For this, I thank you with all of my heart. I don't know what I would do without this board....