Almost got through today before I realized

Discussion in 'The Watercooler' started by gcvmom, Aug 1, 2011.

  1. gcvmom

    gcvmom Here we go again!

    that my dad died one year ago today.

    And I guess I wasn't expecting this flood of emotion to come back. Sigh. Sometimes I think it would be better to forget. In my case, it feels like there are just so many painful memories that the good ones can't help but tarnish as a result. Add to that the loss and I find myself wishing I wasn't remembering.

    Sigh. I'll be fine.
  2. hearts and roses

    hearts and roses Mind Reader

    Gentle hugs, I know it's difficult when a memory of loss pops into your head like that. I'm sorry.
  3. LittleDudesMom

    LittleDudesMom Well-Known Member Staff Member

    Acknowledge the day and the loss - it's often the best way to move forward. We often waste more time trying to forget....


  4. TeDo

    TeDo Guest

    I still go through that every Father's Day (the day Dad died) and it's been 13 years. It hurts a little less each year but it still hurts. Sometimes remembering things hoovers. Today's a new day.
  5. Hound dog

    Hound dog Nana's are Beautiful

  6. tiredmommy

    tiredmommy Site Moderator

    I understand. {{{Hugs}}}
  7. DammitJanet

    DammitJanet Well-Known Member Staff Member

    I have the hard time with remembering my mom's but its right at Thanksgiving normally so half the time it falls on Black Friday so I can attempt to cover it with that. I havent yet hit my Dad's first yet and I will forever be reminded of the day he was buried because it was Pearl Harbor Day...sigh.
  8. KTMom91

    KTMom91 Well-Known Member

    Sending hugs.
  9. keista

    keista New Member

  10. DazedandConfused

    DazedandConfused Active Member

    Hugs GVC.

    My Dad passed six years ago and there's a lot of bad memories and the few good ones are tainted by the bad. The memories will settle and find a place eventually where they will not be so upsetting. That first year anniversary is usually the most difficult.

    Be gentle with yourself.
  11. Wiped Out

    Wiped Out Well-Known Member Staff Member

  12. nvts

    nvts Active Member

    The firsts of these things are always hard...I think part of the emotions are missing them, another is the realization that you got through a whole year, another is missing them.

    Many hugs for you hon!