When Tink decides to have a meltdown, first of all it is only for me. Nobody else. Now for the visual. She drops herself onto her bottom, flops her head down with a thud (now she is laying on her back), and proceeds to tantrum full-tilt 2 year old style. Legs kicking. Feet stompin the ground. Arms flailing. And the first word out of her mouth is "noooooooooooo!" AND, it is always cutting me off. That is, I never even get to finish what I am saying. She thinks she knows where I am headed with my conversation, and she is off to the races. Then there is the audio. After the first "nooo" is a sound that is indescribable. It's a scream, a screech, a shriek, a wail...it does not sound like it should come from a human. It hurts my ears. My hair stands on end. My fillings rattle... Seriously though, when she starts yelling, my insides get messed up. I have to stop myself from lunging. I rarely stop myself from yelling, though I try. She gets sent to her room, where she throws everything she has and bangs on the door. I cannot stand it. I feel my blood change temperature inside my body. I can feel it. I know that there is nothing I can do to stop it, that it has to run its course, but I absolutely can't stand it when she gets like that. I am really pretty good about most things that I have no control over. I let most things go, give them up to God, and accept things for what they are. This is one thing that I am having a hard time with. And it is a physical reaction. I just can't stand it! I don't think I am going to hurt her, but she gets afraid of me when I yell. She says I am making that scary face again. OK, I don't want her afraid of me.