Thanks all for the support. AT first I was so embarrassed, I didn't know who to talk to. But today I am actually hanging in there. I have been very busy with work and the girls. Of course difficult child has the flu so she has been sick since Sunday. husband has been in a really bad mood lately. I don't want to say porn is the end all, but it is worrisome. I feel it leads to other dangerous behavior. And like I said, we have a great relationship in every way. We hug, hold hands, tell each other I love you every day. So it surprises me that he would want to look elsewhere. I'm sorry, I'm rambling. I can't even spell lately. LOL. sigh.